Why is it sometimes so difficult to like the people I love? I am a passionate person and I love pretty intensely…but when it gets crazy, I feel all of my other emotions with equal passion. Believe me: it is good to be on the receiving end of my love; it is not so great being on the other end of either my indifference or my anger.
Tonight I am pretty much put-out with Hub-O-Matic, to say the least. I am tired of being the bad guy; I am tired of being the only one to put forth 100% effort with little return; I am tired of giving more than I receive…and I’m tired of waiting for it all to turn around.
I know that in a couple of days I won’t even remember feeling this way. I know that he will redeem himself and that I am more in love than not in love (which is pretty damn good for 15 years), but still. Sometimes I feel forgotten–and I think I deserve better. I think I deserve the best…and sometimes I feel like he doesn’t even give me left-overs.
I’m just being pissy. I wonder, sometimes, though. I really do. I wonder why I even put forth an effort–no one else seems to…
*le sigh*
Ah, well. Tomorrow is another day; right?
xoxo,
GoGo
I am mentally exhausted. I’ve been working (in theatre) pretty much straight since October…and I fear my brain is just done. I stayed home sick from a rehearsal tonight…and I’m pretty sure it’s because I am just out of steam and needed a night to refuel. I was supposed to be off-book, tonight, but I am having a HUGE amount of difficulty retaining anything.
I just closed a show last weekend, and I need to keep that show fresh because in two weeks we are filming it for a film festival. I think I just may have reached my retention limit. Before that I was in a very emotionally draining piece. Ah, this feast or famine deal sucks. After this I move into an all female production of Macbeth (at least in this I get to be the hero [Macduff] instead of a crazy person–which is what I’ve been in the last 3 shows).
I hope I’m able to pull it together by tomorrow night. Right now I can barely see straight. Send me good vibes…I’d really like to continue working!
xoxo,
GoGo
Hello, world! I’m baaaaaaack…
Wow. I’ve been bopping around since December planting little GoGo Blog seeds all over the internet–pissing on other blog sites by reserving the GoGo identity–without any luck at all in finding a blog home. I even tried blogging on facebook for awhile, but it was comPLETEly unsatisfactory.
I was most distressed when JS crashed, and even more distressed when the new JS opened up shop and I was unable to get GoGo back. I signed on here under another moniker, but it just wasn’t the same. There is something about blogging as GoGo, and nothing else feels right.
Imagine my surprise when I stumbled back onto JS last night and discovered that the GoGo name was suddenly available to me!! I feel like there is a chance I could be happy blogging here; so many familiar names and faces (some are even more familiar now than they were on the old JS b/c many of us have become facebook friends since the crash).
Hopefully I’m home. I have missed everyone so much…but more than that, I have missed the form of blogging; there is something unique about the way we communicate within a blog…and I am so looking forward to sharing myself again.
xoxo,
GoGo
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